blogging everyday was harder then I thought it was going to be, and more time consuming and required more self discipline then I would have anticipated. There were days I was inspired and days I was not, but the challenge was not contingent upon inspiration, but consistency. I don't think I made it to bed before 1 am more then two times in the month of June. Upon finishing my rather intense post last night, I looked at the alarm clock as my head hit the pillow, it was 3:15 am. I woke up this morning exhausted with a serious blog hangover. I guess you could say that I've pretty much been married to this blog for nearly the last 30 days and I think Dave is looking forward to getting his wife back.
It's already July 1st, technically the challenge is over, I don't have to blog... truth be told I was kind of looking forward to this day when I was no longer expected or obligated to post... even if the obligation was self-imposed. And yet here I am snuggled under my covers with the lap top posting another blog... I think what I have created here is a habit, I just can't stop. Many have inquired if I will keep on blogging, the answer is yes of course! Now will it be everyday? Maybe for a little while, but most likely not... but often... yes for sure.
Honestly I have loved blogging it out, it has been a real opportunity to reconnect with my past, live in the details of those memories, to dig up those bones and realize how those experiences, pains and triumphs have contributed to the person that I am today, how they influence the future and where I'm bound... some powerful realizations really. As well, Knowing that each day I was going to need to blog about something forced me to live with a greater awareness, I've lived just a little more present in each moment and that has caused me to tap into a realm of creativity that is always there and waiting to be discovered. That's just the thing though... it must be sought after consistently, and I'm finding that the enemy of creativity is laziness, negativity, fear and self doubt, I've had my days where I've given in to it. It happens... but it's all good cause "I'm trying, I'm doing the work, I'm not a slacker". (name that movie)
Oh... so when I started blogging I intended on not getting caught up in "comments"... reading them, obsessing over how many there were, etc... However I want to say that it has truly been enlightening, encouraging and inspiring to read such genuine and meaningful comments from ya''... really they have felt like natural extensions to my own thoughts. Thank you, sincerely for not just reading, but for contributing to it and broadening my perspective, for your suggestions, your recipes, your wisdom and your awesomeness. Really it's about connecting, and yes... we've so connected.
Basically what I am trying to say is, thanks for letting me babble, you are nice, I like you. Goodnight:)