I remember sitting in the back seat of the Ford aerostar van heading to Las Vegas to visit my grandma, or maybe to Los Angeles to go to Disneyland and we would listen to my mom's Carly Simon Greatest Hits tape. There was of course "you're so vain" and "Anticipation" and "Haven't got time for the pain", but then there was this song.... "that's the way I always heard it should be", I remember hearing it and thinking to myself, this is the saddest song I've ever heard. As a a kid I was naive to it's meaning but extremely receptive to it's emotional depth, the sound of the minor piano chords just felt melancholy, like emptiness, like hurt, like heartache... her voice raw almost unsteady and her falsetto so vulnerable. I remember when hearing the part "I'll never learn to be just me first, by myself" always struck me, with watery eyes. Strangely it was one of the first songs that I ever attempted to play and sing on the piano, I think I was 18, maybe 19. I don't remember it anymore, but if for any reason I need to dig up my sad self, I just listen to this song. Painful and yet so beautiful...
Here is the original recording, incredible production:
Then I saw this live performance... had to share.
PS.- did I ever tell you of the time that I got to talk to Carly? Wow.
How about you? I am really loving the participation and reading all of your songs!! woo!