it's that time again... I look up at the right hand corner of my screen, my heart starts to race, with only one minute to spare, I consider the thought that if I wait even seconds more I will have dropped the ball and ruined everything. Well, that might be a little dramatic... (me... dramatic? c'mon) It's been 19 days since I publicly declared that I would post a blog every day for the rest of June... I'm happy to state that I have remained true to that declaration, and that I am just 11 days away from the solidification of a new habit (based on the scientific study that it takes 30 days...don't have an official source, you can google it). However I have found myself creating another habit, one of procrastination, of cutting it down to the wire, waiting quite literally till the last minute to post. Why do I do this?
I'll tell ya why... is it the rush... my lame way of living on the edge? Kinda, but mainly it's just that this blogging everyday thing is much harder than I anticipated. The thought sits anxiously at the back of my mind all day, that dang blog badger "so what are you gonna blog about today? huh? huh?" I start to take inventory of my day, of my thoughts, experiences, ideas... (and there is no shortage) "no, not that... too boring, too chipper, too personal, too complicated, to sappy... too lazy? " ahh, and there I go again with my PWATMist ways ... over-whelming, over-thinking, over-analyzing, till I arrive at the point where I am... well, over-it. These are the moments that I just stare into the computer screen, with nothing but a great big scary question mark staring right back at me, like a staring contest... tonight the question mark wins.
So this is what I got: I DON'T KNOW.
That being said, maybe you do... do you? well that is assuming that "you" are reading this, maybe not. But if you are, I am open to good suggestions... Blog Topics? Help me... please:)